Well Folks. After a lot of talk, heart to hearts, and weighing all our options, we will not be pursuing moving to St Louis at this time.
I am upset, and this is not what I want, but I have come to the realization that this is not about what "I" want anymore. Its about what is best for my family. DH has turned down the job today, and I will be signing a 2 year contract with my current employer which will result in a state award that will cut my student loans by 10,000 dollars.
One consideration is money. We wouldn't come out any further ahead by moving. We wouldn't come out behind either, it would all balance out.
Another consideration is medical. Being a nurse, I have inside information as to the personalities, and workings of the hospital and clinics here. That makes me more comfortable with my prenatal care, as well as my delivery and aftercare. I already have an OB/GYN here, and I am comfortable with that. I'm not sure that now would be the time to learn a whole new medical system.
Leave is also to be considered. Here, I will have about 3 months of leave saved up by the baby's due date. There is no way that I would have enough time off to take a full 10-12 weeks of leave if I started a new job. That is really important to me. Plus, although I do not enjoy my job, it is very flexible, and I have a lot of autonomy. I can take off whenever I need to, I'm salaried, and have a state retirement/benefits package that can't be beat. DH has a lot of time saved as well, which he would not have if we started over. This was given a lot of weight in our decision.
This is so not what I had planned. I wanted to get out of small town America and experience a different side of life. A place where the town doesn't close down at 9pm. And this is not to say that it will never happen, but for now, it can't. The excitement of the city will now be replaced by the excitement of our new family member. Free time will be much less, and much different now, so the lifestyle that I had hoped to have would not be possible anyways. Time to focus on my pregnancy, and getting ourselves ready for a huge change.
So, there it is. Its the right decision for my family, and regardless of what I feel like I am losing, my family means more to me than all the possibilities of the bigger city. Here's to new life goals and different challenges. The decision to stay has been made, now its time to look forward to the new things to come.
I'm sure our journey, although not the one we had planned, with be even more exciting than the one we had planned for. Its all about perspective. And we are thrilled the the new experiences coming. Life will never be the same!
Welcome little embryo, we are doing our best to get ready for you. You are our first, and I am sure we will make plenty of mistakes, but we will learn what we need to know together. See you in the Spring :)
A week ago, ask me if we were moving. The answer would have been an immediate YES~
As me today? I am clueless. We are pretty sure that DH got that job in Clayton. But, driving 45 minutes each way back and forth to work everyday seems excessive, especially when there are banks on every block. And, the house that we fell in love with is now under contract... and I didnt see anything else that interested me.
On Monday, I found out that I was pregnant. This is ok, im settling in to the idea of parenthood. But, then that adds maturnity leave. At my current job, I have 6 weeks of sick time sitting there, waiting to be used. If I quit, I lose it. My job right now sucks, but it is flexible. And it pays enough, especially since we are not smoking (that is not that bad, really) to be able to afford our house, and all that. If I start a new job, there will be no way that I will have enough time saved up to be able to take 6 weeks off, plus have 4 weeks of vacation, plus all the comp time that I will build up between now and then.
Plus, I have my friends here, and my mom and grandma. Not that they are all that involved in my day to day life, but at least they would be here if I really need them.
Here is another bonus to staying. 10,000 dollars to pay off some of my student loans. All I have to do is sign a contract that I will continue in my current job for 2 years from the beginning of August. That would pay off my MOHELA completely, then I would only have my Wells Fargo left to pay on. I would have to commit to this job until July 31, 2009.
Im feeling lost and overwhelmed. What would you do in my shoes? I really need advice.
3 tests later, I guess there is not much doubt :)
My first OB appointment in September 18th. That seems so far away... but at that time we should be able to hear the heartbeat. That will be cool :)
Still haven't heard from Dh's interview. Still in love with that house we found.... and oh yeah.....
I'm Pregnant! Head is spinning. I'm shocked, scared, excited, and nervous all at once. Goal Number 1? Quit smoking in the next 2 weeks.
We found a house that we both love. Its in St Peters. DH's interview went well, and we are expecting to hear back by the end of this week for a second round of interviews. Exciting stuff happening!
We tried to hook up with Toad, but alas, it was not to be! My husband has now been introduced to Pizza Street. Good pizza, and cheap!
We got new cell phones. We both got Razrs. I have had fun programing all the different ring tones for different callers. My husbands ringtone is "I'm a believer" by Smashmouth. My general ring tone is American Pie. I might get tired of hearing that all the time, but I can always change it :)
So, if I have your number, so you have any requests of what your ring tone should be?
These are never good. Early this AM, my Grandpa Charlie died from a massive heart attack. He was a great man, and I wish I could have been there to say good-bye.
Today I am sad.
I couldnt sleep last night. At 12, I got up to take some tylenol PM. I could only find one. I didnt figure that would work well enough, so I took two dramamine. Oh, MY GOD. I feel so hungover today. This is not good. All of the payment, and none of the Buzzed fun. Ack!
Going to try to drag myself to the Y tonight. Don't want to, have no motivation to do so, but maybe 5 miles on the eliptical will clear out this fog. I sure hope so!